My FB status says: I don’t think I will see this person in the same light again. Everytime I see something about the person, I feel like doing something unspeakable. Aargh!

I think that the damage will forever be there. No amount of repair can mend it. I can be civil. I can drink beer with him. I can be happy for the person. But I will never ever be able to become real friends with him. After seeing the things he wrote about me…

I am so tempted to post it here but never mind. As I’ve said before, I can be magnanimous when I feel like it. I can forgive and forget. In this case, though, I have forgiven but I will never forget.

My sisters and I already made a pact. Come the end of this school year, by second week of April, we will be dragging ourselves to the nearest park every morning to run and do brisk walking. We need it. We are getting older by the day and being overweight can be a big hassle for us.

We are all determined to be fit by the end of summer. Hopefully, lose weight a lot!

I just hope my uncontrollable cravings won’t ruin this goal for me. Mind over matter.

This would have been a cool place to be right now…

The water is so near. Plus the place looks cozy. A place where I can read a good book or just catch up on sleep. And then whenever I feel the urge to submerge myself in water, I just have to go to the beach nearby.

Sounds like pure bliss to me!

The heat is starting to get so unbearable these days. I know it’s summer here in the country but the weather is driving people crazy! I really am so thankful for the fact that I am working at home. Otherwise, I would be one of the crazy people walking under the blistering sun on weekdays rushing to work.

Don’t get me wrong. I love the sun. I love a sunshine-y day. But sweating? That’s what I don’t like at all! Unless I am at the beach or near a pool and I can dip in the water anytime I want.

How about you do you love the sun and the blistering weather?

I swear sometimes it feels like I need to starve myself literally just so I could lose weight. I cut down my intake of sweets. I haven’t been drinking sodas for over two months. I don’t eat chocolates or candies unless there’s an occasion. I have been doing things for me to lose weight.

The only think I have a hard time giving up is rice. Aside from it being a staple in the country, I just don’t feel full without rice for lunch or dinner. Maybe it’s just psychological but it is the only thing that is hindering my weight loss progress.

I wish I can give up rice. Even lessen my intake. I wish I don’t get so hungry easily.

I wish. Sigh…

At the beach. Relaxing. Soaking in the sun. Walking on the sand. Thinking of nothing but the next scrumptious meal to be served. Or what fruit shake to order next.

A girl can dream…

• I want a new digital camera. My old digicam is still working but it was thick compared to the new models that are coming out which are thin. It also uses a rechargeable battery. I want a Cybershot or a Canon. Of course, I still need to save up for it. Spending for this year is planned, budgeted first. That way, I won’t be tempted to overspend like I did the past three years.

• Someone I know was being invited by her friends to dinner. Her friends really went out of their way to invite her because they miss her. But instead of being happy with it, she got annoyed! She told the person who texted her to inform her 3 days beforehand so she can tell them if she’s available or not. Wow.

• My guilty pleasure, PerezHilton.com is no longer how it used to be. It’s now obviously written by someone else who’s not as witty as Perez. You can tell from the number of comments that the popularity of the site is never the same as before.

• Yesterday was my ex-best friend’s birthday. She’s the only friend I had that is the exact replica of my mind and heart. I miss her. And our crazy daily conversations from 10PM to 4AM. The phone line was literally burning from our girl talks! I wonder if she sometimes misses me, too. Sigh.

Of all the friends I gained over the course of my life, the one I had so much connection with was S. It was unbelievable for me to find someone who had the same taste in music, books, boys, and movies. Unbelievable even to find someone who share the same views on life as I do. You can say that I found half of myself in her. I loved her like a sister and I know she felt the same way.

Something happened for her to walk out of my life. It was over a dispute I had at work. We had another friend to whom we were both close to. A big misunderstanding happened and since the other friend was in allegiance with my former boss, the dispute grew big. Until I found myself shutting them both out of my life. It was a painful period. I still regret not talking to them after I resigned from my job. It would have cleared things up. But then I was hurt and not thinking rationally that time.

Looking back, I am not so sure anymore if we could have worked things out. I guess something as precious as what I had could really be taken away in an instant. S was a friend I had for a season. Someone who made me happy when problem after problem marked my life. Someone who helped me know who I truly am. Someone who made me realize what friendship is.

I am remembering those years I was still friends with her. It’s her 32nd birthday today. Had we still been friends, I know I would have been over to her house celebrating this day with her. Alas, it won’t ever happen again.

When someone is in your life for a reason, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. S/he has come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually.

S/he is there to meet a need. Then without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, s/he will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes s/he dies. Sometimes s/he walks away. Sometimes s/he acts up or out and forces you to take a stand. What we must realize is that the need has been met.

When a person comes into your life for a season, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. S/he may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. S/he may teach you something you have never done. S/he usually gives you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons. Those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. You must accept the lesson, love the person/people anyway, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

Source: Anonymous

Some people are really lucky. Someone won the local lottery draw with the jackpot prize amounting to 201 million pesos. That’s roughly US$4.5M! How lucky can someone get, huh?

I pray the person who won will take care of the blessing that he/she got. Use the money wisely. Prioritize the family and give back a portion of it to those in need.

I pray also that I be the next one to win!

Happy Love Day to all!

May your days be always filled with love, happiness and peace.

Happy weekend, too

I am confused by the days. I thought it’s just Wednesday! I was listening to Wave 89.1 and I was wondering why Battlefield is being played right now. Wednesdays are for old music… Wave Back Wednesday. When I checked the calendar, that’s when I realized it’s Thursday!

Sigh. Last week, the lack of sleep confused me. Now, the over-sleeping is causing me confusion, too! Hahaha

Money is like water sometimes. It just washes away easily. I once lived from hand to mouth, several years like that in fact. It was horrible to live that way. There’s no guarantee for what will happen tomorrow because you are constantly looking for a source of income. Even with a steady, good-paying job, if you are supporting a family with two to three kids going to school, it is never enough. It will never be enough.

Time will come when you will succumb to the lure of credit cards and personal loans. I did. And I regretted it. Big time! I sunk deep in the mud of debts. Interest expenses were higher than me. I didn’t know how I could eliminate one debt after another when interest and late fees kept piling up month after month. You are working so damn hard to make both ends meet and at the same time meet the demands of your creditors. I’ve been there. Done that.

Now, my uncle is in the same situation. Credit card problems. I kept wishing I could help them but I can’t because I have a brother who’s in college and I am supporting his education. I just pity him and his family, especially I know how it feels to be in that situation. But I can’t do anything except pray that something good will come out of this.

A friend of mine was painfully shy back in high school. I remember seeing her always with a hanky ready to cover even her smallest of smiles. She was shy that way. She’s only warm up to you after talking to you for probably an hour or so. And then you could expect your ears to ring from her incessant chatter.

Fast forward to 2009. We were planning a get-together for a friend who came home from Canada. I was so lazy to organize it so I asked her if she could do it. You know what? She’s more than capable of organizing the get-together! She really made people to show up! I told her that she’s changed and that she’s now more outgoing. I really praised her for the great get-together we had.

Time really changes a person. I think we’ve reversed roles now.

I am choosing to be happy than stressed out. I am choosing to be positive amidst all the trials coming my way. I am choosing to feel blessed more than anything else. Because I am happy and blessed.

Happy Sunday everyone! Enjoy the last day of the weekend. I hope you are all having a blast wherever you are right now!

I got this from my aunt who got it from the back of a health drink cup she drank from…

Strawberry – a good refreshing cleanser for the whole body.
Orange – helps in cleansing up your digestive system.
Melon – a gentle laxative that stimulates action on the kidneys.
Watermelon – stimulates the appetite, all the while cleansing the bladder and kidneys.
Apple – helps relieve indigestion, keep cholesterol stable and suppress the appetite.
Banana – an excellent aid in digestion.
Mango – gives energy, vitality and promotes healthy skin.
Papaya – an energy booster that stimulates the appetite and cleanses the internal organs.
Pineapple – aids in the digestion of protein.
Grape – an excellent metabolism stimulator.

Go get yourself a basket of fruits and eat the fruit your body needs the most.

Like today. NOW.

I have a habit of reading the news first thing in the morning. I go online and open two local news sites and one international site (CNN). I also log on immediately to my Twitter account to check breaking news I’ve missed. It’s a habit that I’ve gotten since I was a teenager. I used to see my dad reading the newspaper in the morning and I would imitate him. That’s where I got the habit.

Do you have this impulse to read the paper first thing in the morning like I do?

When I was a little kid, all I ever wanted was a grand birthday party. I was envious of my cousins whose parents could afford to spend so much on birthday parties of their kids. I would ask my mom for one but then we couldn’t really afford it because I also have other siblings they needed to think of. Good thing I was a kid who never held grudges.

Now that I can already afford it, even for the past years, I didn’t once threw a birthday party for myself. I do not like the unnecessary attention. My boss and my co-workers once threw a surprise birthday party for me. It was totally awkward for me because I didn’t like the attention. I am better off giving the attention than receiving it. I don’t know why but for the past decade, I have shunned the attention given to me by others. I am quiet content being in the background. Which was the opposite when I was in high school. I loved the attention back then. I was always the life of the party. I would even find ways for the spotlight to be trained on me.

I don’t know what happened. Except that I probably got tired of it all.

A friend of mine posted something on my Facebook wall. It was a social living question that goes like this…

Does (my name) own anything that you wish you had? — She answered: “A Family!”

It really broke my heart to see this. She’s one of the closest friend I have and she’s been there during the tough times. I’ve always considered her more of a sister than a friend. She’s very much welcome at home and is also close to my family. I know her strained relationship with her mom. Her father has another family of his own and they were never close. She lives all alone. I also know that her deepest desire is to have a family of her own.

She’s hoping to start a family this year. Hopefully, the man she found will turn out to be a good man that she deserves. So that she gets to have the family she’s always wanted.