Of all the friends I gained over the course of my life, the one I had so much connection with was S. It was unbelievable for me to find someone who had the same taste in music, books, boys, and movies. Unbelievable even to find someone who share the same views on life as I do. You can say that I found half of myself in her. I loved her like a sister and I know she felt the same way.

Something happened for her to walk out of my life. It was over a dispute I had at work. We had another friend to whom we were both close to. A big misunderstanding happened and since the other friend was in allegiance with my former boss, the dispute grew big. Until I found myself shutting them both out of my life. It was a painful period. I still regret not talking to them after I resigned from my job. It would have cleared things up. But then I was hurt and not thinking rationally that time.

Looking back, I am not so sure anymore if we could have worked things out. I guess something as precious as what I had could really be taken away in an instant. S was a friend I had for a season. Someone who made me happy when problem after problem marked my life. Someone who helped me know who I truly am. Someone who made me realize what friendship is.

I am remembering those years I was still friends with her. It’s her 32nd birthday today. Had we still been friends, I know I would have been over to her house celebrating this day with her. Alas, it won’t ever happen again.