When I was a little kid, all I ever wanted was a grand birthday party. I was envious of my cousins whose parents could afford to spend so much on birthday parties of their kids. I would ask my mom for one but then we couldn’t really afford it because I also have other siblings they needed to think of. Good thing I was a kid who never held grudges.

Now that I can already afford it, even for the past years, I didn’t once threw a birthday party for myself. I do not like the unnecessary attention. My boss and my co-workers once threw a surprise birthday party for me. It was totally awkward for me because I didn’t like the attention. I am better off giving the attention than receiving it. I don’t know why but for the past decade, I have shunned the attention given to me by others. I am quiet content being in the background. Which was the opposite when I was in high school. I loved the attention back then. I was always the life of the party. I would even find ways for the spotlight to be trained on me.

I don’t know what happened. Except that I probably got tired of it all.